Thursday, 1 January 2009

My Christmas Break- Episode 1: The Christmas tree

I have never paid attention to the Christmas trees in Malaysia because i don't celebrate Christmas at all. But ever since I am in the Western country, i try to understand their culture and i notice that Italian can make more creative trees than the English...


This was a huge CT that i saw in the cetral of Cardiff and it was as high as a building of 4levels.
This golden CT was the first one i saw in Italy. It was made by the Ferrero Rochie Chocolate Stall in the train terminal station.


Next, it's the transparent CT which i believe would be very beautiful when the lights on it are on. This was located in the Piazza di Spagna in Rome.


This CT looks very simple but look at the tip of it, it has a Mercedes sign, it's a Mercedes CT. This was located at the junction of Via Condotti (which is known as the street of branded products) and Via Del Corso.

Dang...Dang... Dang... Dang...Dang... The Madacascar CT situated in the shopping mall in Rome. Cute lei..


Another normal CT but with special decorations. The round circle things that hang on the tree are drawings on paper plate drew by the little kid. It was found in Venice.

Another creative CT that made by card board. It looks plain without decoration but i like it because it's simple... This was displayed in one of the shops in Venice.

This is the most creative CT that i ave seen in Venice. it's made by the wooden sticks and stack them accordingly by lenght.

Last, but not least, my favourite CT... with the hanging socks that form a "J" shape. I have the feeling that this was specially made for me, J.J.Tan....

天堂与地狱只在一线之差

天堂篇
新的一年,有新的希望。打电话给老朋友,聊了一番,超开心的,毕竟真的好久没联络了。之后,与堂妹整家人上网,我还有机会和他们讨过年的红包。虽然不能回家过年,但公公已答应把我的红包保留起来,等我暑假回家时给我。一切都那么美好,直到小弟打电话来。。。

地狱篇
家里刮了大风,都散了,全部人的放弃了。可是,在怎么样,我也不能放弃他。和他通了电话,真的好难过,我好担心他,可是他说他已张大了,不用担心他。难道只就是人长大了,翅膀就硬了,那为什么我的翅膀就没硬过?只想对他说:珍惜现在所拥有的,回家吧 回到最初的美好。。。

Thursday, 11 December 2008

好人难做

我想做好人
但事与愿违
总值有别的事挑战你做好人的决心,毅力,耐性,与脾气。。。

但偏偏又做不了坏人
没有做坏人的勇气
做错事又容易内疚
真是不懂那些贪心鬼,自私鬼,是怎么欺负人又不会觉得自己犯错了?
该羡慕他们吗?

No。。。
No。。。
No。。。
要相信善有善报
恶有恶报
不是不报
只是时候未到。

Wednesday, 3 December 2008

PBL-problems based life

What's life?
My house mate says life is difficult.
My clinical partner says life is complicated.
And i say life is...problems...and lots of problems...

Life is about money $$$$
Recently because of some misunderstanding between me and my sponsor, i would only be able to get my allowances for this month 28days later. And how am i going to survive for this month? Everything needs money. Food needs money, rent needs money, traveling needs money... And i have just planned to go Italy with my friends in Christmas. And after that, i planned to go Aviemore skiing with the other group of friends. And in this month, i have to spend a bit extra for holidays and buying Christmas present for friends. Luckily, i didnt overspend for the last few months and i'm now using the money carefully so that my bank account wont be overdraft. Now i know why people can get stress up when they dont have $$$$.
有钱不是万能,但没有钱真的万万不能啊!

Life is about study....
I was so slack for the first few months and now when i started to get serios with my studies and i noticed.... I~ actually~ have~ so~ much~ to~ study~.
I cant blame anyone for that as i started it late and probably my aim is too high that i would like to cover as much as possible but i couldnt finish it within a month before my exam starts. So now what can i do? Slowly digest... Slowly memorize but not to miss a sinlge point... It's hard as it requires discipline and the greatest enemy of my discipline will be my sleeping bug... Winter is around the corner and my brain is so used to going to bed a couple of hours after sun set... But now the sky is getting darker earlier and becoming bright later in the morning. And i would just like to lie down on my bed and refuse to wake up... especially during weekends...
However, i still need to work hard, i am pushing myself to study... push hard... and work hard... I cant let my parents down... I can let myself down...

Life is about friends and family
December is an exciting month as my friends would come over to visit me and at the same time i am going to visit them... These are friends that we have not seen each other for ages... And i have just noticed that on the day my good friend arriving Preston, i would have to see my mentor on the same day... But nevermind, i would have some other friend that could take care of him...
But, my mum told me that my grandparents came to visit her all the way from Penang. And i wish they could come and visit me as well, not only my grandparents, but also my parents and my brothers... We used to spend time everyday when i was young, but even if when i am in college or university, i would still go home on weekend to spend time with them...
But now, regardless of weekdays or weekends, we could only talk to each other through the internet.
I miss the time we have dinner together, i miss the time we go shopping together, i miss the time we sing together, i miss the time we have fun together...

When one goes away, the other one would come. 一波未平,一波又起。How to solve all at the same time? And everyone copes with it differently. And my way of coping is... to blog... to write it out... Not expecting to have a solution yet...
But at least, i would feel better...

Wednesday, 26 November 2008

Miss Silver, happy belated birthday!!!

This post is dedicated to my childhood friend, or maybe not really childhood, i was already in primary school when i knew her. It's her birthday on 25h nov, and i have forgotten her birthday once which made me super guilty and now i'll keep that in my mind.

I have just called her this morning and i was very happy that she still remembers me( so touched...) She could recognize my voice without me introducing who i am.

And now it's time to talk about Miss Silver, i like to call her ah ngan(in cantonese) coz her chinese name is 银。So i label her as Miss Silver, i even save her phone number as Slver Koh. Now to clear the doubt, her surname is Koh, not Silver. (but i still like to call her ah ngan)

First impresion of her, smart student, how smart? The type that super not interested in biology, knew her aim since she started to learn science, used to claim that dissection is very cruel (if i am not mistaken, this was the reason she decided not to take pure science). Then what's her main interest then? I only label people as smart student when they can solve mathemathical questions easily. And she's one of the rare one (as a girl) can score very good results in maths and physics. And that's why she always has the honour to become our treasurer and ambulatory human calculator when we go shopping.

Now that i think about it, we have never be in the same class in the five years of secondary eductaion. We were in the same class from stadard 4-6, and never since then. How do we become close friends then? I have no idea, probabaly this is what we call 缘分。We have very similar personality(she might not agree with it 因为我很容易发脾气,she rarely lose her temper, unlike me, haha). Our thoughts are rationale and logical. (can kind of predict that as she likes maths and reasoning) 物以类聚嘛! This is how we became very close as we worked together for chinese society and also red cresent. I was the VP and as i have mentioned, she was the tresurer.

Have we ever had conflicts/frictions before? Maybe we had, but i really couldnt remember. Perhaps our mums had. My mum was just being too protective as ah ngan and i were in the same year, of course there would be some competition to a certain extent. But i treated it as 良性竞争, we competed in UPSR, PMR, and SPM and other exams but it turned out to be a win-win outcome eventhough there was competiton. We even competed for role model student before in standard six and of course she won because her academic result was better than mine. And do you think i am the loser? No, no... I scored better result in my SPM and i end up doing medicine under the government scholarship. (Haha, revenge successful!! No lar, ah ngan i am just kidding, dont angry ya) And now... she's doing not too bad, final year in UM, doing telecommunication engineering. (until now i still dont understand why did she choose this course)

Ah ngan, everyone has already working except both of us. We must work hard and to prove that we are competent to work in the community even though we are graduating later than other people in our year.

Hereby, i attach a pic to show you who Miss Silver is...
And here is the pic of my jay chou calendar for the month november. At the right hand corner, that is the farewell gift given to me from her few days before i came to uk. And i brought along with me... Thank you very much for the gift
Last, but not least, all the best for your future undertakings!!! 生日快乐。

Sunday, 23 November 2008

SHE 安静了

詞/Selina
曲/周杰倫

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮
卻成了 單人結婚進行曲
在這場愛情角力的拔河裡
愛我還是愛你 你選擇了自己

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡 曾經的都是你喜歡的
如今我還在原地 你卻走回你的記憶

你說我愛你太多 就快要把你淹沒
你害怕幸福短暫一秒就崩落
分開是一種解脫 讓你好好的想過
我想要的那片天空 你是不是能夠給我

你說我給你太多 卻不能給我什麼
分不清激情 承諾 永恆或迷惑
愛情是一道傷口 我們各自苦痛
沉默是我最後溫柔 是因為我太愛你

只剩下鋼琴陪我站在這裡
夢想中屬於我們的婚禮 安靜了 在我枕邊的夢裡
我知道相愛原本就不容易
愛不是1加1 努力就有結局

撒嬌的 可愛的 黏人的 愛哭的 照片裡
曾經的都是愛著你的
臉頰的淚還溫熱 卻沒有人握我的手

Saturday, 22 November 2008

天使Vs恶魔

当有人开我玩笑时
天使说:“忍一时风平浪静;退一步海阔天空。没关系,他只是在开玩笑而已。”
恶魔说:“忍个屁!退你个头!你不给他点脸色看,还是会被欺负的。”

我听了天使的话, 只因为我想当好人。

当有人又在开我玩笑时
天使说:“没关系, 自娱娱人。 人家开心,我也会开心的。”
恶魔说:“你有没有搞错啊?!让别人的快乐建筑在自己的痛苦上, 你是笨蛋啊?!还嘴啊!”

我又听了天使的话,沉默是金,我相信总有雨过天晴的一天。

当有人不停地反复的开我玩笑时
天使说:“上一次都放下了, 这一次又何必提起呢?好人有好报。”
恶魔说:“好人面具都带了这么久, 都快窒息了。何必再当好人呢,只会让人起到你的头上来!清醒吧!!!”

这时
我犹豫了
恶魔说得对,你做初一,我做十五。我何必静静的让你欺负呢? 我应该出声反驳。我受够了!!!
不对,大声并不能解决问题,撕破了脸皮,以后相处就尴尬了。。。
哪里还有以后啊,现在都受不了了,管以后干什么。。。你以前都敢爱敢恨,现在干麻畏畏缩缩的,想做什么就做啊,想骂就骂阿!!
不可以,出门在外靠朋友,吞下去就没事了,以和为贵嘛!!
谁跟他是朋友阿,忍他一次就以为我很好欺负,他想说什么就说什么,我也可以啊,想这样多干嘛?
睡一觉,明天就没事了。
明天这个人还在,事情发生了。没得改变的。
上一次都过去了,只一次就算了吧。
不能就这样算的,这次不解决,雪球只会越滚越大,裂痕也会越来越深,到时再爆发,连累更多人而已。

恶魔说的话越来越长,天使慢慢的静静了。
谁赢了?
恶魔说越多,让人越烦。
天使沉默了,可是不代表他人输了。

相比之下,这时,天使让人感觉很有风范。
恶魔就像喋喋不休的老太婆。

如果我还嘴了,我和对方还不是一样。尽做一些没经过大脑伤害人家的事。
可是,我没办法向天使那么大人有大量的原谅他。
我生气,气在心里头。
我想报复,却没勇气赋予行动。
因为我有良心, 但我要着良心来干嘛?
只会让自己难受。

天使和恶魔还在竞争中。。。
而我,就会使他们的争夺的牺牲品。
站在天平的正中央,天使握着我的右手,恶魔拉着我的左手。。。
我不要去右边,也不想往左边。
我只想跳下去,离开这个烦人的天平。