Weight gain? weight loss?

I think girls like to look slim but i am the odd one, don't really care about my physical appearance, as long my BMI is within the normal, who cares how do i look like? My brothers are always the one who tease me on my weight and body shape, but then, it doesn't affect me at all.

To be honest, i have been gaining weight in a gradual pattern ever since puberty because i thought that my appetite was still like what i had. I ate a lot when i was growing, and continue to eat so much after the growth spurt, but in fact, i do not need that much nutrients anymore, so what happen to those nutrients? They are stored in my body, as a result, i look "roundish" than i used to be. And every year after chinese new year, i notice that i have to buy a slightly bigger size shirt than the previous year.... What a sad case, i'm gaining weight in a very small scale, steadily, gradually and it's even saddest to say that i do not feel like losing weight at all. Just be myself...

And last year, i came to UK for my elective posting, i had terrible tootheache, and for that 2 months when i was suffering from my toothache, i didnt eat too much, i had sandwiches almost everyday. So when i went home, i noticed that i lost 3kg by restricitng my diet. And that was the first time i feel that changing dietary pattern can really affect the weight. However, i regained my weight very fast in the four weeks time when i went home because i extracted the decayed tooth and continue to eat all the nice food in Malaysia.

And for the past few months, i notice that i'm losing weight again, intially it was pointed out by my friends, they said i look slimmer but i didnt take it seriously. Human may lie to me to make me happy, but my clothes would tell me the truth.
First evidence, i notice my clothes get a bit loosen, i blame on the washing machine that spin my clothes til they become looser. But then, one day, i took out the top that i do not wear it very often because i feel it's tight especially when i button all the buttons. When i say i do not wear it very often meaning that i do not wash it very often, there's no chance that the washing machine going to danage the top. So, I put the top on and surprisingly it just fits nicely to me and do not feel tight at all even i buttoned it up!!! Second evidence, i went shopping to buy new clothes for chinese new year. And i could fit into a smaller size shirt which i couldn't last time. Not only the shirt, long pants as well...
And now... i need to think this seriously, i weighed myself, i have lost 5kg from the previous time. As a medical student, suddenly, a lot of things came into my mind. Is it cancer? No, no, no... I'm too young for that... Is it hyperthroidism? Em...maybe not, i dun feel agitated, heat intolerance, no sweating, no palpitation.... I do not have diarrhoea, so it couldnt be malabsoption disease. What else it could be? Stress? Depression?

Think simple..think simple..
maybe just because my mum is not around to cook delicious food for me. so i eat simple...
maybe because i walk a lot so save up bus fares... Exercise can burn my extra calories...
maybe...maybe... ergh.... i cant crap anymore....

i started to scare that it might be something wrong with me but i feel i am normal....
i weighed myself again one day and... oh dear i lost another 2kg in 2weeks...
Em, now i know what's wrong....It's the weighing scale!!! I have been weighing myself with different scale, it's not accurate, maybe they never calibrate their scale...yes yes... I believe the problem is the scale...

After having all thos efunny toughts in my mind, i need to take this seriously. I think that i should maintain my weight, because it's really unusual that i lost weight and it never happen in the past 10years of my life. I just denied that i become slimmer...That may just be every girls' wish but not mine.

I started on a plan to regain my weight. I went shopping, i bought chips, sweented cordial, honey, apples... I learned to eat snacks at tea time... I had heavy dinner. And had apples for supper. Deng... deng.. deng... deng... I regained the 2kg weight in just 5days... haha... I feel i am normal now... Mission accomplished!!! I'm back to myself. From this experiment, i realized a fact that it takes lesser time for me to gain weight but longer time to lose weight. But again, who cares?

I think people who is reading this post would think that i m carzy. but when something unexpected happen in your life, even it's as trivial as losing weight, you would still deny it and take some time to accept it...
Should I just accept the "lighter" me instead of the "heavier" me to save up all the troubles to put on weight???

她的医院 Hopsital G

I decided to blog about this as a new post because it contains a dream, our dream, me and Ah Girl, that's why I name it Hospital G.

她说：她的医院，要让病人住得舒服，有家的感觉。要让病人能选择菜单，有多样化的口味。
我说：要是我，我要有病人教室，教导病人须认知的医学常识。要他们知道药名，和吃药的原因。

她说：她要当院长，聘请有责任有爱心的医生，一起打拚，为民服务。她是Hospital G的院长。
我说：她可以请我当小儿科专科医生，我要当小儿科部的主任。我是Hospital G的副院长。

我们都说了，要一起工作，在芙蓉开医院。
还有三年才毕业，还有十年的政府服务，到时候，我们说不定能一起实现我们的梦想。

一切都是梦，但有梦总好过没梦。
让我们为这个梦一起加油吧！！！

Miss my blog

I'm supposed to blog about my Christmas trip...
I'm supposed to blog about my New Year's eve...
I'm supposed to blog about my mock osce
I'm supposed to blog about my Progress Test
I'm supposed to blog about my Krakow-Prague trip
I'm supposed to blog about my Chinese New Year celebration
I'm supposed to blog about my CNY resolutions
I'm supposed to blog about my lots and lots of stuff...

But, i was lazy...
everything has been delayed...
I've lost the feel to update those posts

Life is about feelings
When it's over, and you cant catch back, you'll just lose it...
Revive and look forward...

Start a new life...
A new post...

遗失的护花使者

想问他
630和10，
谁比较重要？

想问他
UK的地球人和CHERAS的火星人，
谁比较重要？

再见了，
我的私人司机
我的专属钢琴师

祝你们幸福。。。