Thursday 11 December 2008

好人难做

我想做好人
但事与愿违
总值有别的事挑战你做好人的决心,毅力,耐性,与脾气。。。

但偏偏又做不了坏人
没有做坏人的勇气
做错事又容易内疚
真是不懂那些贪心鬼,自私鬼,是怎么欺负人又不会觉得自己犯错了?
该羡慕他们吗?

No。。。
No。。。
No。。。
要相信善有善报
恶有恶报
不是不报
只是时候未到。

Wednesday 3 December 2008

PBL-problems based life

What's life?
My house mate says life is difficult.
My clinical partner says life is complicated.
And i say life is...problems...and lots of problems...

Life is about money $$$$
Recently because of some misunderstanding between me and my sponsor, i would only be able to get my allowances for this month 28days later. And how am i going to survive for this month? Everything needs money. Food needs money, rent needs money, traveling needs money... And i have just planned to go Italy with my friends in Christmas. And after that, i planned to go Aviemore skiing with the other group of friends. And in this month, i have to spend a bit extra for holidays and buying Christmas present for friends. Luckily, i didnt overspend for the last few months and i'm now using the money carefully so that my bank account wont be overdraft. Now i know why people can get stress up when they dont have $$$$.
有钱不是万能,但没有钱真的万万不能啊!

Life is about study....
I was so slack for the first few months and now when i started to get serios with my studies and i noticed.... I~ actually~ have~ so~ much~ to~ study~.
I cant blame anyone for that as i started it late and probably my aim is too high that i would like to cover as much as possible but i couldnt finish it within a month before my exam starts. So now what can i do? Slowly digest... Slowly memorize but not to miss a sinlge point... It's hard as it requires discipline and the greatest enemy of my discipline will be my sleeping bug... Winter is around the corner and my brain is so used to going to bed a couple of hours after sun set... But now the sky is getting darker earlier and becoming bright later in the morning. And i would just like to lie down on my bed and refuse to wake up... especially during weekends...
However, i still need to work hard, i am pushing myself to study... push hard... and work hard... I cant let my parents down... I can let myself down...

Life is about friends and family
December is an exciting month as my friends would come over to visit me and at the same time i am going to visit them... These are friends that we have not seen each other for ages... And i have just noticed that on the day my good friend arriving Preston, i would have to see my mentor on the same day... But nevermind, i would have some other friend that could take care of him...
But, my mum told me that my grandparents came to visit her all the way from Penang. And i wish they could come and visit me as well, not only my grandparents, but also my parents and my brothers... We used to spend time everyday when i was young, but even if when i am in college or university, i would still go home on weekend to spend time with them...
But now, regardless of weekdays or weekends, we could only talk to each other through the internet.
I miss the time we have dinner together, i miss the time we go shopping together, i miss the time we sing together, i miss the time we have fun together...

When one goes away, the other one would come. 一波未平,一波又起。How to solve all at the same time? And everyone copes with it differently. And my way of coping is... to blog... to write it out... Not expecting to have a solution yet...
But at least, i would feel better...